the plans up my sleeve...

I'll admit that being a stay at home mom is completely rewarding and I love it! Now, of course you are waiting for the "but...." and yes there is one, BUT being at home all day, everyday takes its toll. I don't get to have any adult conversation, shows that are usually going are (the everplaying tunes in my head here lately)...SpongeBob, Team Umizoomi, Dora, Diego...no Tristan doesn't watch any of these shows. I am absolutely aware that he probably doesn't pay any attention to it at all, but why not have kid friendly tunes playing through the house anyway, right? Doesn't hurt I say.

I know you might say, it's busy, hard work staying at home. Here lately I try to keep up with the house as much as I can. Tristan gets in an hour to 2 hours worth of a nap. I do what I can around the house, but my mind needs freedom. I need to be able to escape even for just that ONE HOUR or 2...(if I'm lucky 3...RARELY), to release my creativity that is literally about to burst out of my head!!! I have so many things I want to do and learn!!! As I talked to Jay about everything these last few days (and more so last night), he seemed to understand now, more than ever where I was coming from. I was so thankful! He *gets* to step away from being a parent every day (and I say *gets* but I don't hold that lightly, because I realize and understand he is at work!!! not a complete escape, but kind of....). He can step away from being a parent to regather his thoughts and come to...so when he comes home he gets that I MISSED YOU feeling. Tristan doesn't experience that with me. He seems everyday. There has not been ONE day in his life that he hasn't seen me. I think he's like OH THAT LADY...THAT MOM PERSON I ALWAYS SEE!!!!!!

So Jay, in all understanding, is completely on board with allowing me to do the things I love and let me get me get my couped up creativity out!!!!!!!!! I am sooo ready and so excited!!!!!!

Have a great weekend!!